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Stop being lazy (I’m talking to myself)

“Do not wait; the time will never be ‘just right’. Start where you stand, and work with whatever tools you have at your command, and better tools will be found as you go along”

George Herbert via success.com

Good morning readers!

Please forgive me. I keep telling myself that I want to be more consistent with my blog but I let laziness get in the way. My “life” situation continues to change and I find it difficult to adjust at times.

As I have mentioned in previous posts, outside of consistency, laziness is another concept I struggle with.  I get so caught with my personal issues, I forget to focus on things that are important to me (i.e this blog lol). I use YouTube, the internet, and television as distractions to redirect my attention away from my problems. Facing challenges are difficult and stress does build up in the process, but it is very important to maintain focus.

Let me explain how laziness affects me. At this moment, I am STILL unemployed. It has been almost 4 months since I lost my job. Although I now have all this free time, my situation has changed again. I have moved in my family and I help take care of my sick father. I want to be an asset to my family right now but my laziness (and unemployment) keep me from it.

Regardless of my current situation, I know I can prevail because I believe my situation does not determine my final destination. I believe that the most successful people have the darkest history and they never let their past dictate their future.

Have a great week and continue to follow your dreams!

Love,

Kandice

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Chasing your dreams!

I just want to start off by saying that I plan to post a new blog once every week. I am learning to be more consistent and I figured why not start with the blog. Writing this blog has definitely given me a new sense of purpose.

I love the idea of chasing your dreams. It’s exciting but it also comes with a price. Personally, I am starting a path to become a millionaire. In my head, it sounds completely crazy and daring. I don’t consider myself to be the average person nor do I want to live the average lifestyle. It’s going to take a lot of hard work and dedication if I wanna make this happen.

Unfortunately, I have a horrible habit of laziness that can make this dream difficult to achieve. I am trying my absolute hardest to break this habit. I want my son to have better habits and a better understanding of life in general. Life can be difficult enough but how you overcome the obstacles is the important factor.

You also have to understand that everyone is not going to support you. This is the HARD lesson to learn. You have to learn to support and motivate yourself. Everyone is not going to be on your side and you need to be okay with that. If you want to be successful, haters come with the territory. A hater can be anybody, even those the closest to you. I’m tired of asking family and friends for help knowing they don’t want to help in the first place. It’s time for me to gain and maintain the lifestyle I want without the help from others.

I can no longer rely on help from others. My goals are not aligned with everyone else’s. I feel like I am set apart from the rest of the world and I have to start acting like it. I am confident in my abilities and I know I can accomplish my dreams!

Consistency is my weakness

“There are no secrets to success. It is a result of preparation, hard work, and learning from failure”

– Colin Powell

Hey Readers,

First off, I just wanna say I love my son with all my heart. He is the center of my world and I enjoy watching him grow up in front of my eyes. I love him so much that I want him to have the best life has to offer. In order for him to have the best, it starts with me. He pays attention to everything I am doing, whether he knows it or not. He craves love and attention from me; that’s what I strive for everyday. Our lives are a little bit difficult now that I am unemployed but I know I’ll get back on my feet soon. In order for me to do that, I have to face one of my BIGGEST weaknesses…CONSISTENCY!!!.

During my job hunting, I have had a lot of time to think. I think about different moments during my life, whether it be jobs or interactions with people. A lot of negative and toxic people are from my life and I am grateful to God for that. I do get distracted from my goals quite easily and that plays into my inconsistency issues. I hate that my son has to witness this; he doesn’t understand it yet. When he gets older, he will mimic my habits for the obvious fact that I am his primary parent.

I don’t the best way to overcome this and I would like some advice.

If you have any suggestions, please feel free to let me know!!

 

 

 

I’ve always known I would reach this point but I never knew I could feel like this.

I have to start over….and I hate it every time. My perspective on everything I’ve know growing up is changing as I continue to grow as an adult. My mother was a single parent but my father still had a presence in my life. Now I am in a similar situation but my son’s father has no presence.

Continue reading I’m unemployed

Consciousness…

If I could predict the future, my life might not have as much meaning as it does now. Growing up, I really didn’t have much to worry about. Life seemed so much simpler than my actual reality. There is so much I wish I could’ve done differently if I knew better or learned it early on. 

I say this because I don’t want my child to make the same mistakes I did. I have been learning and researching the knowledge I missed out on just so I can teach my son. 

Right now, he is fast asleep. As I watch him sleep, he looks so innocent. He doesn’t understand the world is changing right before his eyes. As generations grow up, the struggle grows stronger. I don’t know if I can invest in my sons future. I am barely making it now, I can’t imagine what could happen when he gets ready for college. 

I am trying to teach myself extreme discipline with limited resources. The ability to better yourself is a conscious and time consuming task. Discipline and consistency are two things I don’t excel in and I’m finding that out the hard way. 

I know I’ll get better over time and maybe then I’ll be less overwhelmed. I just want the best for my son, that’s all I’ll ever need to be feel decent in my situation. 

Parenting is hard, I’m depressed..

“If you are ever unsure of the choices in life or scared of the future, look to me & I’ll help you” – God

I am sorry I haven’t posted a couple of days but I am not myself at the moment. This feeling is mostly coming from a situation at work. I was given a temporary position in an new department of my company and now this position is ending next week. I know some of you might be thinking “How is that depressing”. My old position was a piece of shit and I despised it with all soul. The thing is that this temporary position gave me peace of mind, if you can see it that way. I don’t mind a customer service position but sometimes your customers can push you over the edge. I enjoyed my time and it had plenty of benefits I liked.

Besides this situation at work, what sparked my depression was my thoughts on the future. I never wanted to be in a position where I worked long hours with no time for myself or my child. I often feel a corporate work environment is not for me. I do consider myself a free spirit who doesn’t want to be controlled by anyone. I’ve always wanted to work in an environment where I could do my own thing and still get paid. I don’t want to live a normal lifestyle and be like everyone else. I have always felt like I was set aside to be different and stand out. I have a lot of goals I would love to accomplish this year and I am determined to get them done.

One of my goals was actually to start a blog. I have always wanted to start one and once I got over my fear, this site was established. I want to gain more consistency and I know this will help out.

If anyone is willing, I would love for someone to comment on how you deal with depression or when you feel inadequate. What are some things you do to lift your spirits?

-Kandice